Dual personality; as abstract as your imagination can go about it, it exists.

One of the most popular imageries of such extremism or paradox is that of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Good vs. evil. Life and death. Yang and yin.

Other milder variations may consist of popular personalities such as the classic superheroes and the likes of the on-screens and off-screens; on-stage and offstage. What you do to your family and how you act around your friends. Erving Goffman and his everyday presentation of the self. People who shudder (secretly or not) after they speak publicly.

Psychology may speak of bi-polar mania, multiple personality disorder, schizophrenia, and the likes.

The bigger abstract. In astrology, the Gemini and Cancer are the main culprits. Whether you like it or not, you’re dragged into a round of hide and seek with folks of these whimsical (Sun) signs, whether they plan to or not. Geminis can be many-in-one, spreading themselves thin. You can almost never predict the Cancerian mood.

Most of the time, there is no plan to begin with.

Dual personality; at times you wonder if these people chose it; if they enjoyed it.

=:~:=

This blog.

Most of the time, people can’t seem to associate the person they meet in real life with the author of this blog and vice versa. Apparently, the two subjects are as complementary as the current blog theme and the overall content of this blog.

Serious writing equates to a serious personality, most are inclined to think.

Most of the time, they’re right.

Most of the time.

And when inconsistencies occur, those who are used to a linear, orderly life are thrown, especially those who are used to thinking that life has a set rule; a set theme. What has made sense traditionally and conventionally for them in the past should do the same for their future.

That is what few would admit to be true about their worldview. Especially those who proclaim to be “open-minded.”

Nobody can be truly open-minded lest they are willing to live with that they are secretly narrow-minded about.

Only those who are less cocksure about everything that revolves around them would see that stability, or rather, balance, was never a fixed path right in the middle in the first place. More often than not, we’re inclined towards one extreme or the other. It’s all about a balancing act. That 5% of our minds will never expand so long as we want to avoid that 95% of possible craziness, as long as we avoid what we feel we do not understand; cannot understand, or empathize.

And those who are honest about what they feel, naturally, however (in)accurate they may be, are shunned by the majority.

Only to be recognized for their exact value when they are long gone; when they leave a void. That footprint.

So far, that’s what this society has always been like.

How dogma runs the world.

Upon my return from Bushland, I was thinking that a political reform in BNland also meant a reform in civic consciousness. In other words, I was hopeful that Bodoland is now only a legend.

But I counted my eggs too soon. For last Tuesday at Cold Storage Suria KLCC showed me otherwise…

Me: Excuse me. I bought these cookies about 20 minutes ago and I would like to return them for a refund. [gestures towards receipt that announced "perishable goods are refundable within 2 days. Non-perishable goods are refundable within 7 days."]

TudungGirl: Um, why, what is wrong?

Me: Nothing. I just changed my mind and would like my money back. I did not open these bags.

TudungGirl: Um, sorry, but we cannot allow that. You have to take something else.

Me: Excuse me wtf?

TudungGirl: Um, hold on.

Me: …U dun understan my Amedika issit

TudungGirl: [hollers to the counter next to TudungGirl's] Bang (or something)!

Bang: Ape? (What?)

TudungGirl: Die nak bagi balik ni. Tak boleh kan? (She wants to give back. Kenot, rite?)

Bang: Kenape die nak bagi balik? (Why she wan to give back?)

TudungGirl: [looks at me] Why do you want to return?

Me: I just changed my mind. I need the cash.

TudungGirl: Die kate die lepas beli tak nak ni. Nak wang die balik. (She say after she buy, she dowan. She wan her money back.)

Bang: [frowns and walks over after 5 seconds] What’s wrong, miss?

Me: First of all, did you know that in the States they call me ma’am, not miss, you rude fuck I bought these cookies twenty minutes ago and I would like to return them for a refund.

Bang: Is there anything faulty with them?

Me: No, I did not open them. I just changed my mind. I really need the cash back. And according to your receipt, apparently perishable goods are refundable within two days.

Bang: [stares at Me for 2 seconds and turns towards stupidTudungGirl] Pergi carik Manager.

TudungGirl: [nods and trots off to a nearby storage room or something similar]

Me: …At least Bush wouldn’t let this happen.

[5 long minutes later. The Bang left.]

TudungGirl: Miss, I’m sorry, but we cannot let you take your money back.

Me: Excuse me?

TudungGirl: You can take something else with the price.

Me: Take something else?

TudungGirl: Yes. You can take something else to have your money back.

Me: Why would I want to take something else? I just want to have my money back. I’m returning your goods here which are unspoiled and according to your receipt I can have my money back.

TudungGirl: Actually, no, we don’t allow that. My Manager say kenot.

Me: [torn between wanting to see the sohai MIA presumably diplomatic Manager and forgetting about it and rushing to next appointment] …Why cannot? I’m here for a refund like what your receipt allows me to get.

TudungGirl: [shakes head] We cannot give you your money back. It’s our policy. You have to take something else.

Me: [fed up] What if I were to take this (the cheapest of the three bags of American cookies) and ask for the rest back in cash?

TudungGirl: Cannot. You have to take something else that is as same as the price [points at Me's receipt total of RM47++] or more.

Me: Why the fuck would I want something I didn’t intend to buy in the first place And that’s according to who?

TudungGirl: The bossThe Manager.

Me: Do you understand that according to your receipt, I can get my money back?

TudungGirl: Yes.

Me: And I still cannot get my shit back?

TudungGirl: Yes.

Me: [louder voice] Okay, look, I don’t have time for this, but just so you know, as a customer, I am very dissatisfied with (your service). I’m looking for a refund like what your receipt allows, not an exchange. Get a real London teacher, dumbass. Your receipt here is an official statement from your company and what your manager has told you is inofficial (so it’s technically invalid, you dumb fuck). Do you understand?

TudungGirl: Yes.

Me: …People like you only justifies the deserving brain drain the government that Clorex-washed your brains are crying balls about, leaving unlucky, undeserving good folks to deal with the likes of you.

And so the heroine grabbed those god damned cookies and left in a grand fury, leaving her fellow sheep around wondering what was up her foreign ass, as the former was reminded of how company policies in Bodoland are always a Get-Out-of-Jail-Card kind of license for stupidity.

Later on, her friend Frus decided to pop her patriotic bubble further with more local news about sexy Hentai school outfits she was unaware of, which led to her discovery of how an Islamic movie can cause a nation-wide ban of susu Dutchlady. Coincidentally, HereticIndoCina told her how some Muslim sheep from 7-11 asked if he was a Malay or Chinese when he was checking out a susu Dutchlady because “susu ni haram, bang”.

She told him that at this rate, all “Malays” would have their identification cards checked just to be sure that they are not their Chinese, Indians, or Lain-lain fiends whenever they run out of breast milk.

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(Author’s note: Also, check out Dutchlady Malaysia’s “important announcement.” Instead of saying how such Islamic radicals exist but they do not reflect every Muslim’s worldview, they condemned the film wholeheartedly, regardless of countless news reports and propagandas relating to the terrorism expressed in the film.)

(Author’s note: Edited my disclaimers, due to confusion of some readers.)

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Due to the fear of miscommunication, allow me to throw in a few disclaimers, establishing what this post is not:

1. This post is about some people I’ve encountered, especially recently, and I talk about them in such a way so that the post is more general than subjective.
2. This post is not a thesis of self-justification.
3. This post is not to tell you what to think or how to feel.
4. This post is not to say what is ultimately right or ultimately wrong.

Above all, this post is not meant to moralized. Should you feel that way at the end, try this:

Think about what it took for me to bring myself to even share this much, this far.

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Things I have learned:

1. Nobody naturally wants to fucking hurt themselves for “nothing” in the first place.

2. To love or care, in any way, is to risk hurting oneself at the expense of nobody else.

3. To want to care at all, is the want to justify that trust one feels that the other has earned, if only because the other is just being who they are to the former; to reciprocate to what seemed to be goodwill; selflessness.

4. Before one can hurt another, one has to first get past their own insecurities; either acknowledge them or go in denial.

5. Most of the time, people choose the latter, to go in denial. Hence, there are many selfish, insecure bastards and bitches in this world.

6. People who truly care about you won’t bother trying to use you to satisfy their superficial needs of the moment: Physical pleasure should never be equated to emotional satisfaction.

7. Unless, they are either: a) lying, or b) really wanting to please you more than pleasing themselves.

8. Which brings me to this point: “No” means no; not let’s-have-a-sequel-an-hour-
after-I-pour-my-fucking-heart-out-to-you-or-after-my-bout-of-emoness.

9. (In relation,) Casual dating is sadomasochistically egoistic, selfish, and morally retarded, especially with the “wrong” person. You cannot “be yourself” and “care” like you would for a “normal” positive relationship that it can even jeopardize the “friendship”.

What you may think as initial reasoning/negotiation here may not come to a mutual agreement in the long run.

I wonder what has humanity today become.

10. If someone gives you 2-10 missed calls and does not badger you afterwards for the rest of the day, it does not mean that person is trying to be “clingy”. That person obviously called you because it was urgent and important enough, whether to their physical wellbeing or emotional wellbeing, and you meant more to them than 50 other alternatives.

11. If you insist on calling them “clingy”, what would that say about you if you’re supposedly their good friend/boyfriend/girlfriend?

12. Then again, when you call a person a “cheat/liar” who “only knows to take and not to give” and that you’ve “wasted your time” with them, because they don’t always want to go over to your place to hear you talk shit about other people and hear you tell them how to live their lives and cuddle with you because they’d rather do that with people they’re actually attracted to (especially because you’re obviously already getting the wrong impression about them), after they have been there for you again and again to rant and cry your fucking eyeballs out about how “nobody appreciates you” till fucking dawn, just because you’re their friend, not to mention the special brownie and cigarette lighters (they know you’d like) they’ve spent days hours searching, buying, and baking for your fucking birthday even though you both know each other over the span of only a fucking few months, even though you didn’t do shit for their birthday, just because they thought you needed some TLC after all the pain they have seen you been through…

…don’t expect them to respond to your 20 online and text messages plus 5 (and more, before) missed calls in the middle of the night of fucking finals week, if only because you’re acting on regret upon retarded hindsight.

Especially after you texted them: “Why do you keep ignoring me? That’s lame” and telling them “FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!”.

Or something like that.

13. Most men don’t have the heart most women have.

14. Most women don’t have the brains most men have.

15. The world is clearly fucked up as it is. Don’t assume that the person who chose you (out of 43958 others) to emo with did not know that already. More often than not, fairly educated souls know that there are at least 2478092343490823 people out there living on welfare, dying from AIDS, Hepatitis A and B and C and D and E and F and whatever else, HIV, leukemia, breast cancer, brain tumor, Bush’s decision, having no arms and legs and penises, child abuse, sex abuse, religious abuse, institutionalized abuse, hunger pains, period pains, unfortunate plane crashes, and whatever else your sadistic mind can conjure, so if you do your part not to tell me how to feel, I will do my best to empathize and listen where your good intentions are coming from, thanks very fucking much.

To each his/her own. Each person’s experience is more subjective than you think it is. The impact of physiological pain cannot be compared to the impact of psychological pain if you want to truly relate to the latter.

16. Again, if you’re in any way psychologically educated, you should be well aware that depression is not a choice. It takes a lot out of someone to even share anything related to that with you.

Have you ever tried confiding how you truly feel to someone you thought you can trust?

Remember that feeling, thanks.

17. People who try their best to diss my belief in astrology often do not bother to take the time and effort to study its arcane art for what it is.

Ah…you are wondering if this is a true science or simply a concoction of mumbo-jumbo? One thing is certain, if you discard the ancient occult art of astrology completely, then there is no romance or poetry within your soul, for this is an art with a tradition of mysticism and ancient lore which reaches back for thousands of years.

Source: The coolest mysterious site I’ve come across to date, recently.

Just for your information, I’ve observed astrology on and off for about five years to come this far. And it’s not even much, in my not-too-humble opinion.

18. I was brought up a freethinker; a skeptic; a “philosopher”; a “truth-seeker”. All my life, I’ve almost never liked the idea of being controlled.

Hence, I say it is sick for anyone to assume that I enjoy believing in what I seem to believe in.

Especially when they clearly don’t bother asking me enough to get a clearer picture. What’s more to try to know enough about me before making any educated assumption.

Craziness is never as crazy as you once thought, once you see the reason behind it, for what it is.

19. I look at all the lonely people. I wonder how many of them look at me too.

20. Sympathy and empathy are not the same thing.

21. If I can tolerate you for what you appear to be, can you tolerate me too? If you want me to be honest with you, can you be as honest with me too?

I like telling it like it is, exactly for what it is. Can you do the same too, while facing your innermost wants and fears?

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Mutual tolerance, mutual respect; how underrated.

Fair trade; what an ideal.

Barter trade; the sad fact of life.

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I owe a lot to my intuition. Unfortunately, I don’t trust myself to trust anymore.

If only because I cared more than I should have.

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“I don’t remember a time when I had to protest that I’m being honest.”

The funky therapist, some pH.D holder of something something don’t remember where I saw it, a Muslim.

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I wonder how it is like being an asexual. The therapist said there’s nothing really bad about it.

I’m sorry

Yesterday, I took my heart for granted, more than I should have.

Two words I always think

I have hurt The Lover, The Aries Best Friend, and most importantly, myself.

After you’ve gone

What happened? Well, in general, I talked too much, listened too little, preached with passion, went for the high, and got hit like a bitch with the low.

Almost got myself into trouble with the law, in fact. As well as almost earning myself a new serial stalker Viet.

When I realize…

I was too brutal with my honesty, my truth, for my own good.

…I was acting all wrong

I was none the wiser and I am truly humbled by my experience.

So selfish

I’m sorry.

Two words that could describe

Even as of now, I don’t know how to explain myself, without delving in the possibility of forgetting the patience of my audience of the moment.

Oh, actions of mine

But I suppose I can try.

When patience…

It is at times like this when I really wish that astrology has nothing to do with the motivation of my course of actions.

…is in short supply

Or not. It’s comforting to blame God, after all.

We…don’t…need to say goodbye

Passion is a scary thing. It can make you forget the humble conscience of the mind and confine you in the overpowering heat of the moments of the heart.

We…don’t…need to fight and cry

Yet, it can be a delightful rollercoaster ride too.

Oh we…we could…we could hold each other tight

The heart, the mind, the soul, the good, the evil, the memory, the intuition, the attachment…

tonight……

…the Enlightenment.

We’re so helpless

Where do these concepts come from?

We’re slaves to our impulses

I know and I don’t know what I’m talking about. Yin and yang. One cannot exist without the other, or so God the Nicest Bastard Ever dictates.

We’re afraid of our emotions

But, all in all, living one’s life to the fullest, mindlessly, can kill one sooner than they know it. What a dangerous thing the seemingly innocent heart can be, in comparison to the jaded, but wise, mind. I now see the meaning behind the phrase “wild at heart.”

And no one knows where the shore is

My heart is a wild child. My mind is an old maid. Go figure.

We’re divided by the ocean

Id, Ego, Superego. Freud is a genius.

And the only thing I know is…

It’s funny how all this……epiphany occurred during the time span of The Aries Best Friend’s 24th birthday; 24 hours. Whatever. Thus the month of Aries (March 21 - April 21, or so) a passionately shitty one.

…that the answer isn’t for us

How I wish I was kidding.

No, the answer isn’t for us

And I still love Feist to death.

I’m sorry.

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J U P I T E R I N A R I E S

Jupiter is the expansive, jolly, and humorous planet. It is open to new experience and wants to grow and stretch to a greater sense of self. The self-improvement movement is ruled by Jupiter. So are the jovial business types who finance large ventures and travel around the world. Cowboys, who live in the out of doors and the wide-open spaces, are Jupiterian. Snobbery, greed, opportunism, and superiority are also Jupiterian (its less pleasant sides). Jupiterians are invariably “reasonable” people. The “old boys” are the Jupiterians in a club.

Aries are the direct, fiery, driven people of the zodiac. They start enterprises then give them up just as they get going. Why should they be limited by success? These are the initiators, the pioneers. If you want a straight, direct answer — ask an Aries. They can be pushy. Aries is convinced the way to the top is through inner drive.

When Jupiter is in Aries, the image is the door of opportunity being flung open. Another image is someone grabbing at a potential, whether a potential for growth, money, or greater room. There can also be a pushy superiority when this energy is operating from ego — or a tendency to try to force opportunities to manifest when their time isn’t ripe. Jupiter in Aries says, “swing wide the doors of opportunity — if there isn’t an opportunity opening soon enough, kick open the door”.

Aries is an aggressive, driving sign — its main image is the battering ram. If there is no opportunity, Jupiter in Aries will make an opportunity. There can be a wolf-like quality to Jupiter in Aries since the drive of Aries can combine with the greed of Jupiter to create an aggressive greediness which is not aware of the longer range goals — naked opportunism has also surfaced with Jupiter in Aries. On the more positive side, Jupiter in Aries has resulted in straight-forward openness. Desire and aggression are more open, and more naked. In general, the people born with Jupiter in Aries and the years when Jupiter was in Aries were more “raw”.

In general, the Jupiter in Aries periods were times of strife, inventiveness, and open sensuality. They had that “open frontier” quality.

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Jupiter in Aries

Jupiter in Aries brings you the opportunity to develop an adventurous spirit, moral leadership ability, initiative, self-sufficiency and a talent for positive action relating to education, philosophy or religion. These qualities are necessary in order to expand your personality and life experience. Endowed with a pioneering instinct, courage and much physical energy you may embark on a personal quest for knowledge, understanding and experience that will ultimately lead you to a new and better way of life. You have the ability to carve out your own place in society.

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Jupiter in Aries

Aries Jupiter Jupiter adds heat and moisture where dryness already exists. For this reason, the quality of dryness is minimized to some degree. Consequently, these natives are inclined toward group endeavors and enterprises where the involvement of others is more critical. This individual often seeks to lead such a group, and because Jupiter is associated with philosophy, these natives sometimes have inspiration which they want to share with the crowds. These natives often have an attitude of self importance, enthusiasm, and self confidence, that inspires others to action.

In a diurnal chart, the excess heat creates the danger of the natives overreaching themselves and instead of leading others, leaving them in the dust. Because there is also moisture added to heat, mist is created. This leads to an inability to see clearly through the fog of enthusiasm, leading to overconfidence or carelessness. Fanaticism may result. There is however an increased faith since the airy quality of Jupiter is supported and is in sect. If the native can overcome occasional blindness to reality, they may become great leaders.

At night, Jupiter creates more introspection and thoughtfulness in the natives. These individuals are less inclined to take action on faith and are more discerning and less overconfident. Here the nocturnal moistness is more likely to create leaders who can bring together coalitions that accomplish some useful purpose, though usually on a more modest scale than their diurnal counterparts. While Jupiter is out of sect at night, it is in its own trigon and therefore is more easily heard by the cosmic soul which makes Jupiter a more effective advocate on the natives behalf.

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Yes, my Jupiter is in Aries, though very near Pisces.

:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m not trying to make stuff up
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i swear to god
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
wtf i can’t believe i just said that line
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
wtf man. i wouldn’t have believed myself before this
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
like, i was brought up a freethinker
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and just because i wanted the ultimate truth
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it has to be God the bastard
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
E, a previously strong christian fundamentalist at heart, after all that drama with him, told me that i’ll prolly go to heaven if there’s such a place
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the only difference between me and the rest of the world is just that i care enough to want to help EVERYONE
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
like even rapist. i can forgive them if they have really reformed
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and even put in true effort to show how much they have changed
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
cuz
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i am still an evil bitch on the inside
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i can be
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
at least
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but my heart forever remembers what is good
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
cuz ive been through some of the shittiest romantic experiences, emotionally speaking
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and you know that, first hand
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
you’ve seen me at my worst
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and my best
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i don’t actually have any disorder
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i only display signs of it
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the best medical prescription i can have is just “schizophrenia” (even scientists today still don’t know the root cause for it)
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
someone in the last week asked me within 5 minutes of conversation:
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
“are you schizophrenic?”
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i didn’t even say anything i thought would be obvious
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
didn’t even mention any hospital
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
actually
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it was a lot less than 5 minutes
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
more like 1 minutes
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
1 minute*
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and for a while
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i really thought i was schizophrenic
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
until my therapist who has a ph.D and is prolly 50-60 years old
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and a male too
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
said that i’m perfectly normal
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what irony, life gives.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
so yeah. i can proudly say that i have been there, done that, emotionally speaking
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m not even afraid of death
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
tho
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
sometimes i may be
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
cuz life, like u said
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
is really worth living
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
no matter what happens
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’ll accept it
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
sure, some fuckers prolly would attempt to murder me
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
if i play my cards wrong
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but before that inevitable attempt occurs in my face
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
they have to get past their worst fears and shame first
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and like another friend mentioned to me:
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
“why would someone want to kill you anyway?”
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it’s idealistic to think that it won’t happen
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
because
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
like murphy’s law
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
shit can happen
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
no matter what
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what goes up must come down
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i won’t say i have no more nightmares
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but i am a lot more accepting of my reality now
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the only difference between my experience and the rest of the world’s is this:
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i have been through my worst nightmare.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
which was the possibility of losing P, due to my own mistake
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the fact that i can tell you all of this with pure inner confidence says for a lot
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what do you think?
Leon says:
I think… that time will tell, as always.
Leon says:
It’s really hard for me to say anything.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it’s ok
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
take ur time
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
Leon says:
Things seem to be going fine for you, so we’ll just leave it at that and just let life go on ;).
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
ok
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m sorry if i have hurt you greatly with my words
:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but, hence the concept of “necessary evil”
Leon says:
I’m not hurt, really. It’s just food for thought right now.

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:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
(ive no idea why im getting so much dramatic blog material nowadays. lol)
Leon says:
Your life has always been a drama dear girl
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
yeah
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
true.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
meh
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i really wish to have it simpler, sometimes
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but then again
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what is life without conflict?
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the good kind, especially
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
whatever that means
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
just need to be careful
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
that’s all
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
methinks
Leon says:
Truer words have rarely been spoken
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
hahaha
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
wtf
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
ya man
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
yam seng (D)
Leon says:
Haha
:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
oh crap
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
if astrology is real, i’m afraid for this coming month
Leon says:
?
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
Aries is the sign of Passion
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
Pisces (last month) is the sign of Intuition
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
go figure.
Leon says:
Lots of sex all over the place perhaps? Oh wait might be something else.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
hahaha
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
possible
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m quite hopeful actually, but shhhh.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
rofl
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i don’t know about you, but judging especially by the pattern of recent events, for me, it means that i’m likely to be more passionate about what i want to do with my life.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
more than usual, if that is even possible
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and FEIST IS COMING TO TOWN ON APRIL !!
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
see what i mean now?
Leon says:
Mm.
Leon says:
Done it with P before?
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
not telling O
Leon says:
Haha