Is it truly enlightenment if one misses another’s active presence from time to time?

Or is it just human nature?

Or is it both?

I wonder if there is more than one stage of ultimate enlightenment. I suppose that the very fact that I can even question my own judgment shows that I am not as enlightened as I mentioned in the previous post.

Or it this just me trying my very best to be objective about my very own situation here, so to be as objective as possible about the rest of the many worldviews?

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Buddhism, according to dogma, from my experience, preaches that one shall practice non-attachment to everything in order to retain inner peace, even when it comes to your best nightmares and worst dreams.

I wonder how much did the last Buddha really feel about everything and nothing. Because I think I’m going through that phase of “So, what’s next?”

I suppose it’s merely an acceptance of my personal boredom that I both love and hate at about the same time.

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I wish God’s truth would be clear to me more often.

Again, I don’t hate it though. Nor do I love it.

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I still wish the boyfriend will call/text/go online more often.

Meh, such is life.

I wonder if this is what God meant by me being the perfect Yin and Yang, like a lover once said to me.