:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m not trying to make stuff up
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i swear to god
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
wtf i can’t believe i just said that line
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
wtf man. i wouldn’t have believed myself before this
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
like, i was brought up a freethinker
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and just because i wanted the ultimate truth
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it has to be God the bastard
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
E, a previously strong christian fundamentalist at heart, after all that drama with him, told me that i’ll prolly go to heaven if there’s such a place
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the only difference between me and the rest of the world is just that i care enough to want to help EVERYONE
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
like even rapist. i can forgive them if they have really reformed
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and even put in true effort to show how much they have changed
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
cuz
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i am still an evil bitch on the inside
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i can be
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
at least
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but my heart forever remembers what is good
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
cuz ive been through some of the shittiest romantic experiences, emotionally speaking
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and you know that, first hand
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
you’ve seen me at my worst
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and my best
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i don’t actually have any disorder
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i only display signs of it
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the best medical prescription i can have is just “schizophrenia” (even scientists today still don’t know the root cause for it)
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
someone in the last week asked me within 5 minutes of conversation:
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
“are you schizophrenic?”
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i didn’t even say anything i thought would be obvious
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
didn’t even mention any hospital
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
actually
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it was a lot less than 5 minutes
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
more like 1 minutes
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
1 minute*
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and for a while
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i really thought i was schizophrenic
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
until my therapist who has a ph.D and is prolly 50-60 years old
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and a male too
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
said that i’m perfectly normal
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what irony, life gives.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
so yeah. i can proudly say that i have been there, done that, emotionally speaking
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m not even afraid of death
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
tho
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
sometimes i may be
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
cuz life, like u said
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
is really worth living
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
no matter what happens
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’ll accept it
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
sure, some fuckers prolly would attempt to murder me
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
if i play my cards wrong
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but before that inevitable attempt occurs in my face
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
they have to get past their worst fears and shame first
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and like another friend mentioned to me:
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
“why would someone want to kill you anyway?”
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it’s idealistic to think that it won’t happen
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
because
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
like murphy’s law
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
shit can happen
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
no matter what
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what goes up must come down
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i won’t say i have no more nightmares
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but i am a lot more accepting of my reality now
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the only difference between my experience and the rest of the world’s is this:
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i have been through my worst nightmare.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
which was the possibility of losing P, due to my own mistake
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the fact that i can tell you all of this with pure inner confidence says for a lot
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what do you think?
Leon says:
I think… that time will tell, as always.
Leon says:
It’s really hard for me to say anything.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
it’s ok
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
take ur time
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
Leon says:
Things seem to be going fine for you, so we’ll just leave it at that and just let life go on ;).
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
ok
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m sorry if i have hurt you greatly with my words
:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but, hence the concept of “necessary evil”
Leon says:
I’m not hurt, really. It’s just food for thought right now.

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:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
(ive no idea why im getting so much dramatic blog material nowadays. lol)
Leon says:
Your life has always been a drama dear girl
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
yeah
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
true.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
meh
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i really wish to have it simpler, sometimes
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
but then again
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
what is life without conflict?
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
the good kind, especially
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
whatever that means
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
just need to be careful
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
that’s all
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
methinks
Leon says:
Truer words have rarely been spoken
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
hahaha
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
wtf
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
ya man
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
yam seng (D)
Leon says:
Haha
:: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
oh crap
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
if astrology is real, i’m afraid for this coming month
Leon says:
?
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
Aries is the sign of Passion
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
Pisces (last month) is the sign of Intuition
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
go figure.
Leon says:
Lots of sex all over the place perhaps? Oh wait might be something else.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
hahaha
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
possible
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i’m quite hopeful actually, but shhhh.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
rofl
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
i don’t know about you, but judging especially by the pattern of recent events, for me, it means that i’m likely to be more passionate about what i want to do with my life.
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
more than usual, if that is even possible
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
and FEIST IS COMING TO TOWN ON APRIL !!
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
lol
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
see what i mean now?
Leon says:
Mm.
Leon says:
Done it with P before?
(D):: Eleanor Rigby :: (B) says:
not telling O
Leon says:
Haha

E (1:58:48 PM): A and I say ‘I love you’…but, it’s not romantic, it’s like, I care about you beyond short term conflicts
E (1:59:41 PM): there’s different kinds of love for sure; and I think me and A are companions (not lovers)
E (1:59:52 PM): well, by lovers I mean romantic
E (2:00:20 PM): I’m trying to sort this is out extremely carefully
E (2:00:34 PM): because I honestly admire R, her sister
E (2:00:47 PM): I’d be a happy man to date her
E (2:01:44 PM): but something tells me that would hurt A
E (2:01:57 PM): even though it wouldn’t be logical for her to care at his point
E (2:04:46 PM): AYE
idyllicburn (2:07:49 PM): hmm
idyllicburn (2:07:55 PM): it wouldn’t be
idyllicburn (2:07:58 PM): but it can be
idyllicburn (2:08:04 PM): if u were to have a frank talk with her
idyllicburn (2:08:11 PM): about your feelings for her sister
idyllicburn (2:08:22 PM): be rational and sensitive to her needs
idyllicburn (2:08:30 PM): and u will be able to communicate with her
idyllicburn (2:08:48 PM): she will also be able to tell that u’re sincere and trying to be gentle with her sensitivity at the same time
idyllicburn (2:09:00 PM): make sure she knows that it’s nothing personal against her
idyllicburn (2:09:17 PM): that u’ll still support her no matter what, but u really feel a lot for her sister
E (2:10:33 PM): I don’t think it matters how you say it
E (2:10:36 PM): it’s A
idyllicburn (2:10:51 PM): if u say so
E (2:11:28 PM): it doesn’t matter how gracefully I speak about it; I’m pretty sure whatever issues she might have will still be there
E (2:11:30 PM): dunno
E (2:11:33 PM): I’m not gonna bring it up
idyllicburn (2:11:34 PM): see
idyllicburn (2:11:35 PM): ok
idyllicburn (2:11:36 PM): then ok
idyllicburn (2:11:40 PM): but just so u know
idyllicburn (2:11:46 PM): if u even want to date her sister at all
idyllicburn (2:11:48 PM): or even try
idyllicburn (2:11:56 PM): u have to let A know first
idyllicburn (2:12:02 PM): then regardless of her response
idyllicburn (2:12:11 PM): get to know her sister
idyllicburn (2:12:14 PM): it’s like
idyllicburn (2:12:20 PM): u don’t have to ask for her permission
idyllicburn (2:12:30 PM): but u shud at least let her know that u mean well
idyllicburn (2:12:52 PM): since u both have a history together and u wanna date her sister, so she has the rights to know as well
idyllicburn (2:12:58 PM): after that
idyllicburn (2:13:09 PM): if she still has a prob with u dating her sister
idyllicburn (2:13:12 PM): it’s her own issue
idyllicburn (2:13:19 PM): that only she herself can overcome
idyllicburn (2:13:30 PM): like how u overcome ur own probs
idyllicburn (2:13:54 PM): so yes, u’re right that it’s her, not you, but at the same time, u have to be fair to urself, and her as well
E (2:15:52 PM): do you think it unethical?
E (2:15:56 PM): it’s
idyllicburn (2:16:02 PM): what is “it”
E (2:16:07 PM): uhmmm
E (2:16:11 PM): dating sisters
E (2:16:16 PM): I don’t think so
E (2:16:19 PM): but; some people seem to
idyllicburn (2:16:36 PM): i think one can date anyone as long as there is mutual respect
E (2:16:47 PM): so it doesn’t matter that me and A had sex?
idyllicburn (2:16:50 PM): yes
idyllicburn (2:16:53 PM): tho
idyllicburn (2:16:59 PM): it depends
E (2:17:01 PM): it was a long time ago and it was only a few times
idyllicburn (2:17:14 PM): you seem to be much influenced by the Catholic upbringing
idyllicburn (2:17:15 PM): so
idyllicburn (2:17:18 PM): in that context
idyllicburn (2:17:19 PM): it’s not ok
idyllicburn (2:17:28 PM): it depends on which worldview u’d like to use
idyllicburn (2:17:31 PM): but to me
idyllicburn (2:17:33 PM): it’s ok
idyllicburn (2:17:48 PM): and God forgives you. the past is the past.
idyllicburn (2:17:49 PM):
E (2:18:13 PM): I’m not catholic
E (2:18:15 PM): at all
idyllicburn (2:18:16 PM): u’ll only betray ur heart if u keep fighting what it really wants.
idyllicburn (2:18:17 PM): oh
idyllicburn (2:18:17 PM): ok
idyllicburn (2:18:18 PM): so
idyllicburn (2:18:22 PM): what are you worried about?
E (2:18:36 PM): well, actually, here is the funny part
E (2:19:06 PM): they’re Jewish…and in the old testament, there’s this story
E (2:19:25 PM): this guy works for this girls father for 7 years (indentured servant) to marry Rachel
E (2:19:38 PM): but; the father tricks him and gives him a younger daughter
E (2:19:39 PM): LOL
E (2:19:47 PM): so, he has to work 7 more years
idyllicburn (2:19:57 PM): lol
E (2:19:58 PM): worked out though
idyllicburn (2:20:02 PM): nice
idyllicburn (2:20:09 PM): well, when there’s a will, there’s always a way
idyllicburn (2:20:11 PM): haha
E (2:20:26 PM): well, what I’m saying is… people did this shit all the time in the Bible
E (2:20:45 PM): so; I think it’s just a recent christian/catholic taboo that actually doesn’t make sense
E (2:21:26 PM): some people are strongly opposed to the idea
idyllicburn (2:21:58 PM): haha
idyllicburn (2:22:00 PM): yeah
E (2:22:02 PM): one of my friends last night was saying how horrible it would be
E (2:22:12 PM): and S says in Japan that’s not allowed
E (2:22:26 PM): but; if people can be polyamorous and homosexual
E (2:22:46 PM): this isn’t even in the same ballpark
E (2:22:55 PM): just a shade off
idyllicburn (2:22:56 PM): haha
idyllicburn (2:22:59 PM): yeah
idyllicburn (2:23:06 PM): people are basically hypocritical
idyllicburn (2:23:11 PM): especially when trying to get their way
idyllicburn (2:23:13 PM): btw
idyllicburn (2:23:17 PM): i figured out why bad things always happen to good people. it’s not really because good people let bad things happen to them, but because bad things have a gigantic persistence to do bad shits. and good people can use a few more backbones sometimes to fight that.
E (2:23:41 PM): that’s true; but, the sad part is most of the time the asshole wins
E (2:23:43 PM): especially with women
idyllicburn (2:23:53 PM): women have a soft heart, that’s why. sigh
E (2:24:10 PM): no; because if it was a soft heart then they wouldn’t go for assholes
E (2:24:45 PM): but, maybe I shouldn’t complain… I think I might qualify as an asshole after all
E (2:24:51 PM): but; I’m not an asshole in the way I’m talking about
idyllicburn (2:25:02 PM): yeah
idyllicburn (2:25:05 PM): i get what u mean
idyllicburn (2:25:19 PM): well, see, people go for others based on a need tendancy
E (2:25:24 PM): yes
idyllicburn (2:25:30 PM): they always want what they think they can’t have.
E (2:25:32 PM): and assholes know how to short term patch those needs
E (2:25:34 PM): to get what they want
idyllicburn (2:25:37 PM): and they’re impatient
E (2:25:40 PM): they don’t mind misleading
E (2:25:46 PM): and destroying
E (2:25:50 PM): in the end
E (2:25:54 PM): just to get what htey want
E (2:26:06 PM): and they’re better at pretending to care than people like me actually do!
E (2:26:27 PM): they just want to take something
idyllicburn (2:26:30 PM): most people who are insecure with themselves mislead without wanting to acknowledge what they’re actually doing to the other person.
E (2:26:43 PM): everyone knows when they’re doing it; at some level
idyllicburn (2:26:46 PM): yeah
idyllicburn (2:26:54 PM): well, at least i try not to anymore
idyllicburn (2:26:59 PM): haha. actually
idyllicburn (2:27:05 PM): i don’t want to, anymore
idyllicburn (2:27:14 PM): not to friends, at least
idyllicburn (2:27:22 PM): especially good friends
E (2:27:56 PM): yeah; good friends owe it to each other to be completely honest… you’d be amazed how good friendships can be when they’re like that.
idyllicburn (2:28:03 PM): yeah
idyllicburn (2:28:09 PM): some people deserve it though
idyllicburn (2:28:17 PM): real assholes deserve to be misled
idyllicburn (2:28:29 PM): so that they can take a large dosage of their own medicine
E (2:28:56 PM): well, and see, I was actually planning on just pretending to be A’s friend, then taking over her group of friends and making her miserable, a long time ago, I kinda hated her for good reasons for a bit.
E (2:29:05 PM): but; now I just care about her and don’t want to hurt her
E (2:30:58 PM): and I’ve actually taken the lead with most of her friends; and I could definitely make her miserable, but, now I realize that she was so cruel to me because she was projecting her own misery
E (2:31:03 PM): and I don’t want to make her worse
E (2:31:07 PM): I want to make her better
E (2:31:21 PM): for her and everyone that knows her
idyllicburn (2:32:21 PM): i admire your nobility
idyllicburn (2:32:24 PM):

idyllicburn (4:51:55 PM): i just realized how much of an arrogant prick jesus was, in a way
idyllicburn (4:52:02 PM): as much as he was compassionate
idyllicburn (4:52:23 PM): he was self-absorbed with his newfound knowledge, enough to want to form his own religion
idyllicburn (4:52:30 PM): how much more narcissistic can one get?

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This probably applies to all other self-proclaimed religious founders (whose names I shall not state here in the name of wurl piss) as well.

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=9596417755

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1st April, Boycott Malaysian Media Day
Free your mind for the truth!

Information
Event Info
Name:
1st April, Boycott Malaysian Media Day
Tagline:
Free your mind for the truth!
Host:
People of Malaysia
Type:
Causes - Protest

Time and Place
Start Time:
Tuesday, April 1, 2008 at 12:00am
End Time:
Wednesday, April 2, 2008 at 12:00am
Location:
The Whole of Malaysia
City/Town:
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Description
The Malaysian Mainstream Media has always been biased and it’s getting worse. Since the 2008 General Elections the Malaysian Mainstream Media has become more apparent with its biases towards a certain political party! Especially recent reports by BERNAMA who apparently misquoted Penang CM Mr. Lim Guan Eng on the May 13 issue (http://www.jeffooi.com/2008/03/utusan_and_bernama.php) and not to mention making mountains out of mole-hills!

So I say let’s switch off EVERY single Malaysian Mainstream Media for a day and let that be April 1st 2008!

Don’t buy newspapers (or go to their websites): Say NO! to The Star, NST, Utusan, Berita Harian, etc.

Don’t watch local channels: Say NO! to RTM1, RTM2, TV3, etc.

Make this known and make April 1st, a day where we demand the Malaysian Media truth in their reporting!

SHOW OUR COLLECTIVE POWER AND DEMAND OUR RIGHT TO TRUTH!

POWER TO THE RAKYAT!

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Alternative News Source:

http://www.malaysiakini.com/

http://www.malaysia-today.net/

http://www.jeffooi.com/

http://themalaysianinsider.com/

http://www.news.google.com/ (just search for “malaysia”)

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We are no fools! We can handle the truth!

Commemorate April Fools day by not being one. Do not allow ourselves to be fooled.

Send a message to our media superpowers that we are matured Malaysians and we can think for ourselves. The media must serve the conscience of the people and answers to no one but to truth alone.

If we abstain from buying the newspapers, watching TV, tuning into the raido for news, logging on to news portals on the internet, even for one day, the loss generated will hopefully gain us a step closer to free and accountable journalism in Malaysia.

Free Your Mind!

http://www.aliran.com/oldsite/monthly/2001/8d.html

http://www.rsf.org/article.php3?id_article=24025

http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/77470

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FAQ

Q: Is this event an April Fool’s joke?
A: This event is NOT A JOKE. TheStar is a joke. TheNST is a joke. TV3 is a joke. But this. is. not. a. joke.

Q: TheSun is free, so how?
A: Just Well just don’t take a copy. Let them collect back and recycle.

Q: Why don’t we make this boycott for a week?
A: (1) This initiative is to instill awareness, (2) We still want Malaysian mainstream media but a more fair and truthful version, (3) We’ll experiment for a day first for now… if the response is good we can even extend this to a month

Q: When and where is this event?
A: This event has no physical venue or congregation. Its merely creating an awareness for the date of 1st April to be a ‘Boycott Malaysian Mainstream Media Day” in order keep those who are in the industry be responsible in their journalistic duties to the people. No attendance is required. Just don’t buy the newspaper, watch news on TV and even tune into the radio on 1st April!

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I have stopped trusting the Malaysian media since a long time ago.

Happy Merdeka, again.

Good forwarded mail from my dear father, one of the Awesomest Dad(s) ever to brace the face of Earth!

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Health (Important)

1. Getting LESS than 8 hours of sleep affects your health
2. Best sleeping time is from 10pm at night to 6am in the morning
3. Drink more WATER in the morning, less at night
4. Reduce the amount of OILY food you consume
5. Do not have HUGE meals after 5pm
6. Do not take pills with COOL water
7. Keep your distance from (mobile) phone CHARGERS
8. Reduce the amount of TEA you consume
9. Do not eat bread which has JUST been toasted
10. Do not drink coffee TWICE a day
11. Do not take alcohol more than one glass/cup/serving a day
12. Do not lie down immediately after taking medicine before sleeping
13. People used to napping will not get old easily
14. When the battery is down to the LAST grid/bar, do not answer the (mobile) phone (because) the radiation (will be) 1000 times (stronger than usual)
15. (Listen to) the phone with (your) LEFT ear. (The radiation will) spoil your brain directly (if you use your) right ear
16. Do not use headphones/earphone for a LONG period of time. Rest your ear (for) a while after 1 hour

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Listen to good parents, kids! Broccoli is f-ing awesome if you know how to cook it right!