(Edited; 21st Feb 2007: Linkage.)

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I totally figured that I’ve been very pissed for the past few days, if not weeks.

Nobody noticed, of course.

Because apparently, as eloquent and expressive I may seem to be in this blog, let’s remember that a person online and offline are actually two persons instead of one.

It’s not entirely Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde either. It’s more like a Tom & Jerry where Tom is my head, consciousness, extroversion, and whatnot, which keeps chasing after Jerry, my heart, subconsciousness, introversion, and whatnot.

Tom in a way controls Jerry with all the chasing. It seems to make sense too, because Tom is a bigger creature which supposedly should hold more strength and knowledge and whatnot. Jerry however is seen to be some insignificant pesky little creature which doesn’t seem to be anything better than good dinner.

Jerry fears Tom, hence he always tries to shut up and hide. Though, sometimes, Tom and Jerry do things together and are good friends…

…until Tom decides to eat Jerry up.

Jerry can tell when he’s about to get consumed by Tom. Always.

And that’s when he starts running away; breaking down.

Tom conceives plans to capture Jerry, often failing somehow and ends up looking stupid instead. Maybe he tries too hard.

And Jerry somehow almost always pop up during unusual moments. Like a reminder of some sort.

Maybe Tom should realize that eating Jerry isn’t the way to go. They could actually work things to their benefit, if they were to compromise and be focused with their goals.

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If only practices are as easy as theories.

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Sometimes, having no choice seems better than having a choice.

Because the responsibilities that come with choices may just be too great.

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I suppose I should learn to be a better bitch. At least it’ll stop these annoying mind fucks.

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Okay, fine, so somebody noticed. I noticed that he noticed because he actually still approached me, after I unwittingly took out most of my frustrations with the past on him. Subconsciously.

There went Jerry again. Heh.

Again, I’m sorry. And thanks, for…understanding?

Well, at least you made me feel understood, this time around.

Now you can call this a truly “personal” post.

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(Edit)

Relevant post: Mind your heart