ADP – The American Degree of Pain

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    Your warrior queen has returned from war.

In order to prepare my perfectionist yet procrastinating self for the final examinations, I endured the following timetable which is akin to that of a boot camp:

Day 1: 22nd of April, Saturday

0730: Wash up. Breakfast

0800: Study for World Religion (Chapter on Christianity)

0820: Power nap! (It’s fucking history, what do you expect?)

1030: Really study for World Religion/Christianity (Ganbate!)

1200: Power lunch

1215: World Religion/Christianity again

1330: Go to college

1600: World Religion class presentation on Christianity

1900: Get home. Wash up. Dinner.

2000: Attempt to study World Religion/Christianity  again. Tell bro to stay away from the computer. (Bloody noisy China-made CPU)

2200: Accidentally-on-purpose power nap!

2250: Feel shitty. Study World Religion/Religions of the Americas instead. (Rather read the Bible than the textbook)

0041: Sleep.

Day 2: 23rd of April, Sunday

0650: Wash up. Breakfast

0700: Study World Religion/Chinese Religion

0900: Power nap

1000: Study World Religion/Chinese Religion

1300: Power lunch

1320: Study World Religion/Hinduism

1400: Very powerful nap

1600: Start to panic. Study Philosophy/The Sophists Socrates instead.

1730: Study Philosophy/Plato

1840: Study Philosophy/Aristotle

1900: Power nap

2010: Wash up dinner

2100: Study Philosophy/Aristotle again

2325: Cant take it anymore. Plan to wake up at 0400 to study the remaining 2 religions for World Religion. (Supposedly should study another 4 more, not 2)

Day 3: 24th of April, Monday

0750: Omfg

0810: Finish feeling groggy. Breakfast.

0830: Power study for World Religion/vocabulary instead

1000: Go meet the Devil.

1100: World Religion exam (From 6 of the 9 religions chosen, choose 3 religions to answer to)

1300: Super power lunch.

1315: Power study Philosophy/Descartes

1400: Philosophy exam. (From the 8 philosophers, choose 5 to talk about)

1600: Take a breather and muck around.

1830: Camp in college library to study for Interpersonal Communication

2100: Power dinner

2200: Get shoo-ed from college library.

2300: Reach home. Wash up. Study for Interpersonal Communication.

0130: Snore

Day 4: 25th of April, Tuesday

0630: Wash up. Breakfast.

0655: Study for Interpersonal Communication

1015: Go meet a lesser form of Hell (go to college)

1100: Interpersonal Communication exam

1300: Feel like crap from memorizing the wrong stuff for one of the two compulsory essay questions. Lunch.

1320: Check out the pirated DVDs. (Havent watched V for Vendetta yet. )

1500: Reached home. Eat some soggy bananas.

1530: Write notes for Sociology/Chapter 4 (Chapters to be tested: 3, 4, 7, 8, 9, 10)

1815: Attend Bantus Capoeira practice (A good one hour for lots of aggression to be released)

2030: Reached home. (Instructor got carried away) Wash up. Dinner.

2125: Complete notes for Sociology/Chapter 4

0110: Snore

Day 5: 26th of April, Wednesday

0640: Wash up. Breakfast.

0715: Get distracted with past screwed up relationships. Write diary entry. Feel pissed.

0830: Feel pissed with lack of self-control. Write notes for Sociology/Chapter 7

1215: Finish notes. (Neck feels quite sore.) Power lunch.

1235: Write notes for Sociology/Chapter 8

1620: Call up instructor about my absence Bantus Capoeira today.

1625: Complete notes for Sociology/Chapter 8 (Neck is now fucking sore) Take a breather. Do stretches.

1710: Start writing notes for Sociology/Chapter 9

1830: Wash up. Dinner.

1920: Continue writing notes for Sociology/Chapter 9

2240: Finish notes. (Neck is dead)

2250: Fuck it. Sleep.

Day 6: 27th of April, Thursday

0645: Wash up. Breakfast. (Neck is still dead)

0715: Write notes for Sociology/Chapter 10

1020: Power nap (I heard that you remember things better if you sleep right after you read or memorize them)

1100: Revise notes of Sociology/Chapter 3, 4, 7

1310: Super saya power lunch.

1315: Arrive in Hell. Power revise notes of Sociology/Chapter 8, 9, 10

1400: Sociology exam

1530: Escape from spawn of Satan. Feel pissed that 45% of the paper was made up of statistical questions. Sees other classmates all agonized similarly as well, if not worse. Feel that theoretical and methodological questions were more important for the better understanding of the society. Feel that 70% of what has been memorized was a form of toilet humour.

1630: Hair treatment pedicure resurrection of Neck

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Tribal Challenge: 144 hours of MSN, social, blogging, and keyboard abstinence

Tribal Council: (Updated on 14/5/2006) WREL105 = C-; COMM105 = B; PHIL101 = B+; SOCS101 = A+

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I am outwitted, outplayed, but not outlasted.

I am woman; hear me roar.

The person who created the final examinations should be shot, strangled, stabbed, poisoned, slashed, stoned, baseball bat-ed, electrocuted, garrotted, butchered, chopped, sliced, minced, chain sawed, buried alive, incinerated, car rammed, assasinated by clowns, decapitated, laser beamed, WWF-ed, Kill Bill-ed, The Dentist-ed, SAW-ed, Scary Movie-d, forced fed with McDonalds and KFC, thrown over Petronas Twin Towers, etc. (in any sequence)

    At one point in life, every human does not practise as they preach. An excellent example is the infamous new year’s “resolution”. We claim that we’ll lose weight, we’ll quit smoking, we’ll be nicer to our family, etc etc, and little did you know, the next year has arrived before you can say: “Got change?”

    Following my last post about hypocrisy, Frus has said something interesting about it as well.

PLEASE READ WHAT

 

FRUS HAD TO SAY BEFORE YOU

 

READ THE FOLLOWING OR

 

BE CONDEMNED WITH

 

AFRICAN BITING

 

MOSQUITOES.

    Due to the minor dispute there that seemed to have grown and was ongoing, he approached me on MSN, and we’ve come to this conclusion:

    Thinking is tiresome.

    Back to the main topic at hand, I said that one is wrong if one does things that forego his claims, yet still claims it. But that doesn’t mean that one is bad because of that. What I meant was that one is wrong if one does not do like one says. That person did not live up to himself/herself. And if you would refer to my very first comment at the bottom of Frus’s blog, I’ve summarized it all up (perhaps a little too short and succinct for an explanation): Hypocrisy is based on ones definition of personal ethics.

    So, if you don’t do like what you profess to believe in at the present moment (which is ever-changing by the way), you’re wrong to yourself.

    Can you live with that?

    So yeah, Frus and I agreed that we can’t live with self-deception. But sometimes we do it for the sake of harmony and peace with others. Everybody at one point of time will somehow deceive themselves.

    Now we’ve come to the point of acceptance, preference, and morality. In other words: Ethics. On the subjective point of view, hypocrisy is more about whether we accept it in ourselves or not. We try to live up as much as possible to our conscience, while compromising with the sub-consciousness, la la la.

    Conscience rarely varies among individuals.

    But, on the objective point of view, looking at the society in general, it’s the screwed up people who think that being self-deceiving is perfectly okay, and at the same time affect others negatively, as well as not living up to their conscience, is immoral as well as dislikeable.

    Just look at the high school scene. For the bunch of bitchy people, it’s in their sub-consciousness that they are desperate popular-wannabes, but they just don’t want to admit it. Even to them, when everybody else can see it straight through them. Frus mentioned that we can’t really blame their sub-consciousness. What’s with the whole world of emotions, repressed feelings etc, tralala, like it’s meant to happen, and they have to let that energy out somehow.

    True, but from my personal experiences, it’s more like they are conscious at times about what they’re doing yet they’re like: “No, I’m not doing what you think I’m doing. No, really…” and other people are like “Yeah, fucking right.”

    Hence, those kinds of people are people who I cannot just “accept” them like how Frus put it in his blog because they fucking know what they’re doing yet say that they’re not. They are nice to your face but an arse in their pretty-yet-ughly little heads, and will even try to get their arse jobs done through other people.

    In other words: They will brainwash other people so to backstab you. These are social parasites that kill humanity, I tell you.

    And Frus went about how even though he doesn’t like them too, he’ll let them be. The feeling of his dislike towards them will be a result of their wannabe attitude (which was according to him, “the cause”). So his dislike towards them was meant to happen and that is perfectly beautiful, nature-wise.

    In conclusion, even though we don’t blame hypocrites, that doesn’t mean that we like them. I’m just saying that I don’t like hypocrisy, yet that doesn’t mean that I don’t accept it.

    It is inevitable after all.

    I once said that I hated blogging. I still do. In a way. It’s just that feeling of laziness at times. I just want to procrastinate. I don’t know why. Perhaps, it’s my Piscean nature.

    And then I’m forced to blog out of obligation. The attention does get to me after all. I don’t think the right question is “Do you care about others’ opinions of you or not?” I don’t think that there is anyone in this world who doesn’t care for attention. Perhaps we should be asking how much of others opinions of us do we care about instead. Because sometimes, it takes the other to fish out our own flaws that we’re blind to. And when everybody disagrees with you, perhaps you should consider disagreeing with yourself.

    Do you want to change for the better?

    Choice is sometimes not a choice for Change.

    Blogging really isn’t all so great, the critics and I will tell you that. Mainly because you may never know if your spouse or your boss reads your shit. And it’s true actually. I don’t want my parents who may be reading all my cock-and-bull all these while, read something they can actually hold me against with. It’s terrorism, I tell you, when your superiors know your darkest secrets. Hence, I simply don’t get why would some people blog about their daily rants about their everyday lives and then feel bizarre when the subject of rant screw their asses for it. According to The Universal Declaration of Human Rights, Article 19, “Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and expression; this right includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media and regardless of frontiers.”

    Today’s society is a hypocrite.

    I still inflict pain and hypocrisy unto myself. I still don’t know how to conduct my life. I guess it’s a lie when I say that I want to blog for myself, yet I want to write for people. I know I want readers. After all, one of my life goals is to reach out to people. There are so many life issues like love, friendship, society, honesty, etc, that are misconstrued by the media, which I want to enlighten others with my complex personal experiences. It may sound like a cliche, but many people offline have been surprised with what I know today.

    Perhaps my world is still too small. Is it?

    Still, I want to destroy the misconception and stereotype that maturity is solely linked to age.

    What is too old? What is too young? They say the moment you are “not too young and not too old” is during your teenage years. Is it? From what I’ve observed, the word “fuck” used to be the adult’s privilege. Then teenagers thought it’s cool and they use it themselves. Nowadays, you cannot go past a primary school without passing by kids who scream “FUCK” in the most uncool manner simply because it would discriminate them from the “childish” majority.

    Maturity is overrated. It just doesn’t link to age anymore. I wasn’t even 18 before a friend called me Yoda.

    I digress.

    I really don’t like being a hypocrite. I really want to just explode sometimes. There is so much diversity I find in life that I want to share, yet I can’t find myself putting them down in words just like that. And too often have I restrained myself from expressing my romantic soul in my blog, not only because I don’t want my parents to know about it, but also because I don’t like knowing that I may break hearts and cause envy in my admirers. I don’t want to lose a prospect just because he knows that he may not be The One. Sometimes, it’s not easy to accept that human nature is capricious. Acceptance and understanding are two different concepts.

    I’ve learnt a lot in the past few weeks. Perhaps it’s time for application. Now I don’t want to care anymore.

Continuing on the identity crisis dude, remember the part where I said: “My friend thinks you should get laid”? Well, the very same friend got somewhat inspired by the asshole and had written a rather thorough blog about why he dislikes philosophers, which I think many people (who think that philosophy is boring, dull, sien, self-destructive, mind-wrecking, nerve-numbing, migraine-provoking, comatose-inducing, etc etc) can easily relate to. Also, I think I’ve commented in that blog, enough to treat it as an individual blog as well.

So, cheers!

 

P.S. Remember to read the comments bottoms up!

The Beginning

 

(Editors note: I wanted to post this before the end of my 18th year. Oh well. Anyway, just so you know, this is one highly recommended read for the intellectually sane.

The other day my over-analytical mind brought me into an abyss of thoughts once more. Who am I? What am I? Why am I here? Am I needed? Does anything matter? These questions are enough to either encourage stoning sessions with complementary shishas or literal self-stoning sessions.

Now, we would opt to have an encouraging external factor to push us to question ourselves and life, before executing the above mentioned stoning sessions. Some of these external factors may be the time when your “smart” boyfriend/girlfriend/fling mate cheated on you with your poor and ugly “best” friend, the time when your nice lecturer gave you a stinking undeserved F just because you so happened to forget to print out your Nobel prize-winning thesis, or the time when the teh tarik price went up just because the fucking unrelated petrol price went up.

To further provoke ourselves to dehydrate our brain juices, we often use the help of two kinds of people. The first type being really humble people who would claim that they dont know much about life and might give certain insights, either on purpose or by accident, if they think those insights are required. The second type being seemingly humble-yet-not-so-humble people with the IQ of 160 who would be more than pleased to tell us their meanings of life (which usually are rather meaningful anyway). Nevertheless, both types usually possess an ample amount of good nature and humor, which are vital for a good teacher-student relationship.

But the last people you would want to have to preach to you about anything remotely philosophical at all would be thinkers who mislead you with dangerously thin facades of intellect. In other words, fuckwits who act like theyre all-knowing. In simple Manglish, stoopid lan ciao peepel hu tok big kok.

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Part 1: The seemingly harmless and innocent introduction

(Editor’s note: Someone who is overwhelmed by his alter-ego, Socrates, has approached me in “Friend”ster. As a basic introduction, Socrates is a very wise and witty philosopher who focused on the issue of ethics, thought that he knew Nothing, and had dedicated his life to conducting his mission of finding someone wiser than he was through his dialetic method. In this method, Socrates never taught anyone but he would help other people unearth their wisdom through thorough questioning of their own arguments.)

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Part 2: The test of intellect

Editor’s note: I’ve shown the following conversation, unedited, to a few objective friends prior to this publication. Despite a suggestion of cutting irrelevant and boring parts out, imho, every single word of his counts, in portraying either the greatest comedy, or the greatest tragedy, in the world of philosophy I’ve known so far. Though my world is relatively small, I hope that the subject of study here is the last of his kind for the sake of sanity. May God (if any) bless his lilly soul. rAmen

 

P.S.

 

1. Seriously pay eXtra attention to the highlighted and underlined bits. They don’t just serve as anecdotes but also as some key information as a follow-up of this 6-article series.

2. Fyi, Socrates never cared for beauty in the usual sense. He thinks its useless

3. Oh, and do check out his profile when you’re done with everything. It can be quite amusing as well.

 

 

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| Session Start: Wednesday, February 01, 2006 |

| Participants: |

| (b) Bodicea (d) (youhavetoaskformypermissiontostalkmethanks@hotmail.com) |

| Lionel (letsnotharasstheinnocentdude@hotmail.com) |

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[02:50:31 PM] Lionel: ur shooting style is very identical then mine (Editor’s note: In reference to my photo as my MSN display picture.)

[02:50:44 PM] (b) Bodicea : identical?

[02:51:21 PM] Lionel: yes, expressionsism

[02:52:58 PM] Lionel: wat month u were born?

[02:53:30 PM] (b) Bodicea : March.

[02:54:06 PM] (b) Bodicea : expressionism. i’m afraid that i don’t have an idea of what i’m really trying to express half the time

[02:54:30 PM] Lionel: tat is basically wat expressionism is all about

[02:55:17 PM] (b) Bodicea : http://dictionary.reference.com/search?q=expressionism

[02:55:33 PM] (b) Bodicea : however, i don’t even recall trying to portray my inner experiences.

[02:56:36 PM] Lionel: expressionism is not about intropection or retrospection of experience, it is about the will to exist

[02:57:59 PM] (b) Bodicea : so i may have indulged in such field without my conscious involvement?

[02:59:05 PM] Lionel: expressionists are born to provocative with their expression, not experience, is a destiny, a calling that you will soon figure out what it is about

[03:00:23 PM] (b) Bodicea : and how would you explain my ignorance of expressions shown in the photos?

[03:01:17 PM] Lionel: ignorance is sensible experience which is not wat you are doing, you are merely displaying ur intellectual absurdity, which is Nothing

[03:04:42 PM] (b) Bodicea : and yet I couldn’t care more about my or your intellectual absurdity, for I know that I had always known Nothing since the start of my philosophical thoughts

[03:07:20 PM] Lionel: tat is because something is ascertaining ur feel, lost and suffering thought, which often is Nothing

[03:08:16 PM] (b) Bodicea : and your point of this subject is?

[03:09:23 PM] Lionel: absolutely Nothing

[03:09:36 PM] (b) Bodicea : i thought so

[03:11:07 PM] Lionel: show me more pics

[03:21:35 PM] (b) Bodicea : i don’t like taking orders from another

[03:23:42 PM] Lionel: is nothing in order, is a disorder request

[03:24:49 PM] (b) Bodicea : i do not appreciate commanding requests

[03:28:12 PM] Lionel: i didnt’ ask you to command, so you don’t have to appreciate my request

[03:28:54 PM] (b) Bodicea : what i meant was that your request seemed commanding to me

[03:30:56 PM] Lionel: i din’t mention nor show see the word ‘command’

[03:32:02 PM] (b) Bodicea : nevertheless it implied so.

[03:32:59 PM] Lionel: implication is illusive, individualistic lunatics

[03:36:07 PM] (b) Bodicea : let’s just say that my illusion told me it’s more to the commanding side.

[03:38:16 PM] Lionel: that is because ur illusion is commanding you to be illusive in command

[03:44:51 PM] (b) Bodicea : perhaps. perhaps not.

[03:45:53 PM] Lionel: Nothing is perhaps

[03:47:16 PM] (b) Bodicea : do you always chat in this introspective way?

[03:49:34 PM] Lionel: i dont’ , i chat my way to have you introspect, coz you are special

[03:50:41 PM] (b) Bodicea : how Socrates of you

[03:53:44 PM] Lionel: very

[03:54:27 PM] (b) Bodicea : are you having an identity crisis?

[03:54:33 PM] Lionel: always

[03:54:41 PM] (b) Bodicea : how do you feel about it?

[03:55:04 PM] Lionel: feeling lost and suffering

[03:55:35 PM] (b) Bodicea : how are you taking it?

[03:56:14 PM] Lionel: i am making it happens

[11:44:50 PM] Lionel: you reminded me of someone

[11:45:07 PM] (b) Bodicea : how so?

[11:46:57 PM] Lionel: you are a strong nihilist and an existentialist

[11:48:17 PM] (b) Bodicea : please elaborate

[11:59:39 PM] Lionel: the only different is she is now a material object, i hope you will still be a subject in time to come

[12:04:29 AM] (b) Bodicea : is that person of any importance to you?

[12:07:05 AM] Lionel: yes, talented soul like you, someone i hope to mentor to become an excellence extentialist, but objective consciousness taken her to the road of no return

[12:15:26 AM] Lionel: you have her shadow, and i am worry

[12:16:55 AM] (b) Bodicea : what seems to be the problem?

[12:18:12 AM] Lionel: you won’t be awared of it til you totally consumed by it

[12:18:41 AM] (b) Bodicea : aware of?

[12:20:04 AM] Lionel: urself

[12:24:26 AM] (b) Bodicea : what if i were to tell you that i’m apathetic about life in general?

[12:26:27 AM] Lionel: that is an encourging sign actually

[12:26:58 AM] (b) Bodicea : great.

[12:27:20 AM] Lionel: but

[12:27:37 AM] Lionel: be a pessimistic optimist

[12:30:06 AM] Lionel: life is pessmism, but existence is optimism. You are born different with a mission to create andenlighten others through the process that require you to feel the lost and suffering (Editor’s note: Sounds like he’s calling me Jesus)

[12:36:41 AM] (b) Bodicea : amusing. i’ve consciously been like that since i was 16

[12:36:57 AM] (b) Bodicea : a pessimistic optimist

[12:40:05 AM] Lionel: yes, you are a creator and producer, that’s your destiny, through the pain you are suffering in confronting the pathetic life and fake real world, it provokes ur will to exist, to express, you write, you do art, you produce concepts that are to be consumed by the rest of the shallow minds, but that’s the mission in you, that’s how you seek ur pleasure

[12:42:14 AM] Lionel: but, because you are different then others, you are deeper, you will be dislike by the bureaucrats, the hypocrites, and you have to be persistent to maintain ur style to fulfill ur destiny, something not easy to do

[12:44:06 AM] Lionel: but if you understand style means self assertiveness, nothing would to let you down and cloudy road will eventually be cleared in front of you

[12:44:34 AM] (b) Bodicea : you know, chatting with you is like chatting with an astrology bot in Yahoo! Chat

[12:45:03 AM] (b) Bodicea : perhaps you’d consider working freelance for Tickle.com

[12:46:46 AM] (b) Bodicea : now, what observations did you derive out of my online personality in order for you to be able to type what you typed about me?

[12:50:15 AM] Lionel: you have a nihilist personality, a bursting level of self existence and abundantly absurd, qualities of a feel-lost-suffer/philosopher (Editor’s note: Wow. What an answer. =_=”)

[12:55:10 AM] Lionel: well, you can laugh at your own fate, astrology or sort, good luck

[01:02:33 AM] (b) Bodicea : i can. but i did not

[01:08:14 AM] (b) Bodicea : yes, i cannot say that i did not consider myself “different” from the others. i presume that you meant the general society around us when you meant “the others” for i don’t see how i differ from other philosophers like you and I. and yes, it was not very easy, initially, to sustain my unique combinations of characteristics without feeling the inclination to adopt common qualities of “the others”, but somehow, i’ve gotten the hang of it and am trying my best to stay true to my own mind

[01:10:15 AM] (b) Bodicea : and i saw the need to create what is deemed “different” from “the rest”. but alas, originality is seemingly overrated. i just go with the flow, yet fighting it at the same time.

[01:12:49 AM] (b) Bodicea : i had this one premonition of some sort, some time back, perhaps i dreamt of it, or was told by some astrological observation (which may be correct by sheer luck), that one of (or my main) life goals is to “reach out” to the people.

[01:13:52 AM] (b) Bodicea : enough of my nonsensical ramblings. did i offend you in any way?

[01:15:51 AM] Lionel: existentialists main role is to enlighten others, i am doing my bit to inspire you, take it or not, is up to you

[01:16:23 AM] (b) Bodicea : i appreciate your concern.

[01:17:13 AM] Lionel: i just dont’ want to see another talented soul gone sour, it hurts me badly to see it happens

[01:18:10 AM] (b) Bodicea : have faith that i’m not very easily influenced in the negative sense

[01:20:19 AM] Lionel: faith is wat u need to believe in, not the negative aspect i worry, but i am more concern about u giving up your existence

[01:25:09 AM] (b) Bodicea : when i feel too overwhelmed by it, perhaps i might give it up. but i don’t see what good will that do, so i won’t.

[01:26:06 AM] Lionel: good

[01:27:38 AM] (b) Bodicea : are you happy?

[01:27:46 AM] Lionel: i like ur lips btw

[01:27:50 AM] (b) Bodicea : thx2/

[01:28:24 AM] Lionel: i am happy as long as you still exist

[01:30:06 AM] (b) Bodicea : who else makes you happy?

[01:31:23 AM] Lionel: wat u mean?

[01:32:56 AM] Lionel: you are the most unique i ever met

[01:36:28 AM] (b) Bodicea : how come?

[01:36:59 AM] Lionel: wat how come?

[01:37:47 AM] (b) Bodicea : well, i don’t see how unique can i get.

[01:38:10 AM] Lionel: u r intellectual

[01:39:23 AM] (b) Bodicea : and many aren’t?

[01:42:26 AM] Lionel: i will introduce you to like minded people like us

[01:43:30 AM] Lionel: but you are very intellectual

[01:44:24 AM] Lionel: and very fragile too

[01:50:34 AM] (b) Bodicea : thx2/ (Editor’s note: it’s an emoticon that says “Thank You” in Chinese.)

[01:51:10 AM] Lionel: ^o)

[01:51:24 AM] (b) Bodicea : are you chinese illiterate?

[01:52:04 AM] Lionel: yes, but i did literature review on ancient chinese war histories

[01:52:29 AM] Lionel: during which, i learned my mandarin

[01:53:42 AM] (b) Bodicea : perhaps, the chinese war histories did not include simple niceties such as “thank you”

[01:54:24 AM] Lionel: dont’ have to thank me, i have done nothing (Editor’s note: Is it just me or did he completely missed my well-meaning sarcasm?

[01:54:37 AM] Lionel: i just want to see that you are well

[01:54:48 AM] (b) Bodicea : i thank people for their compliments

[01:55:36 AM] Lionel: is not a compliment my dear

[01:56:05 AM] Lionel: wat u doing ? (Editor’s note: What a contradiction to his earlier “Socrates”-ness and introspection-ness)

[01:56:23 AM] Lionel: how come ur mum still not chopping u to pieces yet?

[01:56:35 AM] Lionel: ur you have eaten her

[01:57:20 AM] (b) Bodicea : my mum, thank goodness, is rather naive in her own ways and quite computer illiterate

[01:57:40 AM] (b) Bodicea : i fooled her by switching off the monitor

[01:58:16 AM] (b) Bodicea : she mistook the loud noise of my China-made CPU as the noise of the standing fan next to it

[02:00:02 AM] (b) Bodicea :

Lionel says:

but you are very intellectual

Lionel says:

and very fragile too

the former may be a compliment. i acknowledge the latter as my weakness which should be embraced and not feared.

[02:00:32 AM] Lionel: yes, indeed

[02:00:41 AM] Lionel: i begin to like you already

[02:01:16 AM] Lionel: are u the only child?

[02:02:19 AM] (b) Bodicea :

Lionel says:

i begin to like you already

 

does this mean that you did not like me in the past?

[02:03:31 AM] Lionel: i am skeptical of whether are you another ‘her’

[02:05:02 AM] Lionel: but your intellectual level really turn me on, i don’t care any more

[02:09:17 AM] (b) Bodicea : who is “her”?

[02:09:44 AM] Lionel: a person who i long forgotten

[02:10:08 AM] (b) Bodicea : what history did you have with her?

[02:12:03 AM] Lionel: someone who talent i used to adored

[02:12:26 AM] (b) Bodicea : that did not answer my last question

[02:14:17 AM] Lionel: wat kind of answers u expected

[02:14:39 AM] (b) Bodicea :

Bodicea says:

what history did you have with her?

[02:15:37 AM] Lionel:

Lionel says:

someone who talent i used to adored

[02:17:42 AM] (b) Bodicea : how about “what social interactions did you have with her?”

[02:19:45 AM] Lionel: we didn’t have any special relationship, not yet maybe, coz she turned sour too fast, too furious

[02:20:22 AM] (b) Bodicea : and how long did you know her?

[02:21:37 AM] Lionel: i don’t wish to waste our conversation on others, especially those who are forgotten, can i?

[02:23:47 AM] (b) Bodicea : you’re allowed to not want to wish.

[02:24:12 AM] Lionel: tq

[02:24:57 AM] (b) Bodicea : what is your year of birth?

[02:25:24 AM] Lionel: 1971 (Editor’s note: A fine example which proved that age does not define intelligence nor maturity.

[02:27:10 AM] (b) Bodicea : what do you do for a living?

[02:27:26 AM] Lionel: strategist

[02:28:26 AM] (b) Bodicea : field?

[02:29:18 AM] Lionel: none, can be any fields

[02:29:48 AM] Lionel: i’ve served as strategist for at least 5 different industries

[02:31:26 AM] (b) Bodicea : any personal favorites?

[02:32:03 AM] Lionel: not really

[02:33:13 AM] Lionel: i’ve served in IT, retail, creative, finance, consulting.

[02:33:21 AM] Lionel: i prefer to be a writer

[02:34:46 AM] Lionel: i think my age can be ur father

[02:40:08 AM] (b) Bodicea : perhaps. that is if you, under the malaysian laws, have raped my mother.

[02:41:01 AM] Lionel:

[02:43:49 AM] Lionel: how tender are u? 18?

[02:46:20 AM] (b) Bodicea : 18

[02:47:25 AM] Lionel: yup, i almost can be you ur dad

[02:51:04 AM] (b) Bodicea : say, before I made any remarks about age matters, how old did you presume me to be?

[02:51:28 AM] Lionel: i know you are around tat age

[02:52:10 AM] Lionel: and i don’t want to be ur dad, even i am quite, old

[02:52:40 AM] Lionel: i am attracted to ur intellect and absurd personality (Editor’s note: Paedophilic Greek philosopher-wannabe alert.)

[02:56:23 AM] (b) Bodicea : thanks but i’m interested to know what mental age would you view me as, if you were to solely judge me on what we’ve discussed

[02:57:33 AM] Lionel: still 18, being intellectual has no count on age, you can be old but a fool or wise but young

[03:02:44 AM] (b) Bodicea : usually, i like to amuse myself by knowing how some people compared my wisdom to the age of the conventional member of the society.

[03:03:26 AM] (b) Bodicea : regardless of that, i agree that intellect does not solely depend on age

[03:03:48 AM] (b) Bodicea : though age does give time for intellect to grow

[03:04:46 AM] Lionel: only volume of work, not the level of intellect

[03:05:50 AM] Lionel: i am still the same me in regardless of age, just that i produced different kind of work throughout my age

[03:06:39 AM] Lionel: ur age is important, don’t ever think that you are growing old

[03:07:25 AM] Lionel: as Picasso said it, the problem with creativity is how to remain young and fresh all the time without the burden and supression of maturity

[03:08:02 AM] (b) Bodicea : what is your opinion on humor?

[03:08:39 AM] Lionel: is extremely important style in displaying one’s intellectual level (Editor’s note: I can’t agree less.

[03:09:51 AM] Lionel: may i see a pic of yours?

[03:12:30 AM] (b) Bodicea : yes. and you’ve seen many of them already. (Editors note: Throughout the chat, I did not show him any of my photos at all. By “many of them”, I meant my photos in Friendster.)

[03:12:46 AM] (b) Bodicea : regarding humor, i thought you seem uptight. (Editor’s note: Following his “Socratic”-ness if he remembered that “seem” is an action of an illusion

[03:13:00 AM] (b) Bodicea : my friend reckons that you should get laid.

[03:13:36 AM] (b) Bodicea : this is a pretty good angle of your head >>
(Editor’s note: A sincere reference to a photo of his, which he displayed in MSN just then.)

[03:13:59 AM] (b) Bodicea : (C) (Editor’s note: A coffee emoticon which I meant “cheers”)

 

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Part 3: The climatic contradictory un-Socratic outburst (cat fight!)

(Editor’s note: The below happened after I went offline after “cheers”-ing him.)

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(Editor’s note: What happened to his predictions about me and his calling me Jesus?

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Part 4: My bitching session about “Socrates” with an objective spectator

(Editor’s note: I’ve copied and pasted an excerpt I wanted to highlight the most, to a lovely friend of mine, Albert.)

Excerpt:
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[03:09:51 AM] Lionel: may i see a pic of yours?

[03:12:30 AM] (B) Bodicea : yes. and you’ve seen many of them already.

[03:12:46 AM] (B) Bodicea : regarding humor, i thought you seem uptight.

[03:13:00 AM] (B) Bodicea : my friend reckons that you should get laid.

[03:13:36 AM] (B) Bodicea : this is a pretty good angle of your head >>

[03:13:59 AM] (B) Bodicea : (C)

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[01:31:37 AM] Albert: so you suspected, but you wanted to initiate contact anyway, to find out if he was indeed different from other greeks

[01:31:51 AM] (b) Bodicea : who on earth who see me as “destructive” and egoistic from those few lines???

[01:32:12 AM] (b) Bodicea : and just write me off his/her friend list, just like that??

[01:32:20 AM] Albert: haha

[01:32:39 AM] Albert: well, it takes a diff. kind of ego to shut up and not write you off also lol

[01:33:02 AM] Albert: very diff. ways of taking it

[01:33:37 AM] (b) Bodicea : heh. yeah. well, i believe, a person of logic and rationale, would at least ask me to clarify?

[01:33:46 AM] (b) Bodicea : allow me to explain myself?

[01:33:55 AM] Albert: sure

[01:34:00 AM] (b) Bodicea : where is democracy and my freedom of speech??? u noe. if u were my regular blogder, u’d have observed the number of prized examples of stupidity i have to encounter more often than a weekly basis. as a very understanding person, i’d allow a person to be as naturally stupid as he/she wants. (Editor’s note: Usually a “he”. this allows me to say that most females online are smarter than most males online ) but i simply cannot tolerate if he/she adopt a facade of wit and intellect/wisdom, only to reveal his/her true nature in such distasteful way

 

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The Grand Finale: The Showdown

 

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Assholes like this killed philosophy.